If you tell me about tomorrow's program, I'll manage it according to the schedule.
I don't care. I'm going to sleep for now. I'll come in the morning and give you the whole day's program.
I never thought that one day it will come when you'll be sitting in your car and I'll be sitting in yours as well.
Nothing will happen about your arrival, right?
Yes, I'm planning to come. Actually, all the things are in Shahzaib's hands.
And he's always busy with the hospital. He keeps thinking about it all the time.
He's an alcoholic just like you.
By the way, Sanmurad has left.
Kashf, you're here? I've been waiting for you for a long time.
Assalamualaikum sir.
Waalaikum salam.
Inform me when you come to Karachi this time.
Not for long but I need to meet you.
I don't know how you'll react to what I'm trying to talk to you about.
Why? What's the matter? I know that you're a reasonable and sensible person.
Yes, I am. But there are some things that we find okay but others are not.
Others get offended.
You've given me a long lecture today.
By the way, this is the first time I've seen you like this.
Tell me clearly, what's the matter?
I hope whatever I'm about to talk to you about, even if you don't like it, it won't affect our friendship.
Okay.
Kashf, if I want to propose to you, then?
I've been wanting to talk to you about this for a long time but I never had the courage to do so.
You know everything about me and if you want to know something, then you can ask me.
I've talked to my parents as well. They don't have an issue with it.
Now I just want to know about you so that I can send my parents to your house.
Now won't you say anything?
I'm getting late.
Kashf?
Come on, let's go home please.
Sara?
What happened?
Really.
What happened?
Did you go to the doctor?
I'm fine.
And I'm tired of going to the psychiatrist.
I don't want to go.
Sara, when you're worried, I get very upset.
I don't feel like doing anything.
I'm Farhan's son.
Then let it be.
What do you care about him?
I don't want to care about him. I don't want to think about him.
But he doesn't come out of my mind.
I don't understand how he can replace me so easily.
Sara, get rid of him. He wasn't a good man.
I don't know.
I don't know if he wasn't good or I wasn't good.
But I know one thing.
You didn't help me at all.
You were never there for me.
Why do you keep accusing me?
I didn't force you.
This divorce happened because of your will.
Fine, you didn't force me.
But you didn't even explain it to me.
And that's your duty as a mother.
What would I explain to you?
You wanted to understand something.
Zaroor explained it to you.
Junaid explained it to you.
But you insisted that I want a divorce.
Can you stop hurting me please?
And just leave me alone.
Just go away.
Go away.
Just leave me alone please.
Kashif,
Shanila has got married.
The boy is an engineer.
He works in a multinational in Karachi.
I like the people.
They are well educated and well educated.
Try to understand that I agree.
But before I say yes,
I want you to decide on something.
Then I will marry Shanila.
What is the matter dear?
What are you thinking?
Nothing mother.
Did you ask Shanila?
They brought the proposal only when it was Shanila's wish.
The boy's sister studies in the college with Shanila.
She is also an engineer.
Shanila has seen the boy.
If it wasn't for Shanila's wish,
they would have brought the proposal to our house.
Then it's fine mother.
If you like everything,
then you can fix her proposal there.
Don't make her wait for me.
I am not worried about Shanila.
They are ready to wait.
I am worried about you dear.
What do you want after all?
What do you want?
I don't know what I want mother.
I just know that I don't want to get married.
After all why?
Because I don't want to spend a life like yours.
I don't want to put more trouble and tension in my neck.
Then what will you do dear?
Will you stay like this all your life?
Yes mother.
I will live the way I want to live.
I am very satisfied with my life.
But I am not satisfied dear.
I want to see your home in front of my eyes in my life.
I don't know what do you think of living in a house?
Husband, house, children dear.
These are all the needs of a woman.
I have a house mother.
And I am afraid of things called husband.
Children are a responsibility that I don't want to take.
Then what will you do dear?
What will you do?
Will you stay like this?
Yes.
I think you will be a very good mother and wife.
After all why?
Why don't you want to get yourself into such beautiful relationships dear?
Because mother I don't think that I can be a good mother and wife.
I have a lot of issues and problems with me.
Which I can never get rid of.
I can never get rid of it.
No matter how much I try.
What happened?
Your children have gone out of their minds.
Both of them are out of my control.
What have my children done?
Someone has told Sara that Farhan has a son.
She has been crying since then.
Did she say anything?
She said.
Can you believe it?
She is telling me that I shouldn't have supported her.
I should have made her understand.
Neither would I have supported her nor would she have gotten rid of this problem today.
I am becoming bad even after supporting her.
I don't know how people raise their children.
Both of them have made me go crazy.
That is why I wasn't in favor of haste in the issue of divorce.
If I had spent some time then maybe they would have realized their mistakes.
Then there could have been a way to patch up.
But you didn't listen to me even at that time.
Now you blame me too.
Supporting your child in a crisis has become a crime.
It has become a crime.
What mother would not support her daughter in this situation?
Many mothers don't support.
Support doesn't mean that you should agree to your child in haste.
God knows there will be no use in thinking and regretting.
I am worried about Sara's second marriage.
I have met a few people in this matter.
A few families are also interested.
It is possible that I will introduce Sara to someone for this purpose in a couple of days.
Are you talking about introducing her to someone?
She doesn't even want to hear the name of the marriage.
Then you make her understand.
You are close to her.
She understands you more than you do.
I also had this misunderstanding that she understands me.
But your child doesn't understand anything.
Not even mine.
I have thought about it.
That I will not say anything about Sara and Zaroor's marriage.
I will not give any advice or see any proposal.
It is their life.
They can live as they want.
Who am I to talk about them?
What should I tell mother?
Why am I afraid of marriage?
I am not afraid of marriage.
I am afraid of fate.
I don't believe that something good can happen to me in life.
I can get something from hard work.
But not from fate.
And I cannot work so hard in life and stand at the door of fate again.
And now Osama's proposal.
What has happened to him?
Why didn't I ever realize that he was interested in me?
But why is he interested in me?
He could have found better girls than me.
More beautiful.
With a better family background.
Then the desire of marriage with me.
Or maybe he sympathizes with me.
He wants to do all this in sympathy.
He is always used to helping everyone.
He sympathizes with everyone.
He must be thinking that I am not able to get married yet.
Then maybe.
And he must be discussing everything with Zarun.
Everything about me.
I trusted him more than I needed to.
I was wrong.
Why did I need to keep in touch with him?
When I didn't keep in touch with any other university boy.
Then?
What does that mean?
Has he lost his mind?
What is the value of graduation?
That too in the second division?
He knows very well.
What job he wants after studying for 14 years.
Then why is he talking such nonsense?
Why is he saying that he will not study further?
Actually he wants you to send him abroad.
What do you mean send him abroad?
Look, all his friends have gone abroad.
He was not Javed.
He also went abroad last week.
So he wants that he also goes abroad.
He was saying that whatever I have to do, I will do it when I go abroad.
He will do it when he goes abroad.
What has he done here?
He will go abroad and become a lion.
He is not going to do anything.
You are taking him on fire.
He has lost his mind.
Send him abroad.
He will ruin his money and come back.
This is what you are saying.
His heart is broken because of these things.
Sometimes you did not encourage him.
Sometimes you did not praise him.
Sometimes you did not say that it is okay.
You always taunted him.
You only say one thing.
That he cannot do anything.
That is why he cannot do anything.
What has he done that I should praise him?
And I am fed up of being courageous.
What else should I do for him?
For him?
You.
Everything happens in your city.
This is only in your city.
You have made him a girl.
He does not care about being a man.
He is not ashamed of it.
He does not think that his father is getting old.
How long will I keep pulling the car of the house alone?
Just send him abroad.
And who am I to send him abroad?
Why?
Your daughter is not in America.
She cannot do anything for brother.
What did brother do for her that she will do?
What is your attitude?
You did not let me go to the wedding.
Yes.
When did I say no to you?
Mr. Murtaza, you did not go as per your wish.
Do not blame me for everything.
I am not blaming you.
I am telling you clearly.
I know it very well.
Where did you learn these clear things from?
Ever since you have started going to Rafiya's house,
you have made my life and my children's life weird.
By giving examples of her.
Rafiya is like this.
Rafiya's way.
Rafiya's children.
She is like this.
But look, if Rafiya does not become,
then she will be an heavenly creature.
I did the biggest mistake of my life by marrying someone else.
I lost my mind.
It was a mistake.
But you did not make a mistake.
My father did.
He married a young, single girl to a father of three children.
My father and I had a bad time.
Where was the time when you had to die?
Hello?
Hello.
Kashif?
How are you?
I am fine.
I have been calling you for a long time.
Were you busy?
No, I was not busy.
I was just not in the room.
You tell me, how are you?
I am fine.
I am just a little scared.
Of what?
I had asked you a question.
You did not answer me.
I am just a little scared.
Of what?
I had asked you a question.
You did not answer me.
I am just a little scared about that.
I have thought a lot about this.
And I think that there should not be any such thing between us.
And what is the reason for this?
Can I ask you?
Usama, I do not want to marry you or anyone else.
What is this?
I am telling the truth.
Then I will tell you that I can wait.
But maybe later you will change your mind.
There is no chance for me to change my mind.
We are good friends Usama and I do not want to give you a new relation or color.
So please do not talk to me about this in the future.
Did you not like what I said?
If I did not like it then I did not like it either.
But did I say anything wrong to you Kashif?
Is it wrong to propose to someone?
Yes, I know.
But please do not talk to me about this in the future.
Okay?
Goodbye.
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What happened to your posting?
I will keep something like that in Islamabad.
But I thought about it mother.
I will want to live in Pakistan after living abroad for a while.
I did not expect that you would want to live in Pakistan.
You joined this service because you were so fond of coming and going.
I was fond of it.
She is still there mother.
Where is Sara?
She has gone to Nooriya.
I had called her to call her for a while.
Hasn't her depression ended?
No.
I had told you about Farhan's son.
Yes.
I talked to him.
The last I talked to him, I thought his depression ended.
No.
Two days are fine and then the same depression.
The same thing comes again and again.
Why didn't you explain it to me?
You would have stopped me from getting divorced.
Saroon.
Why don't you take Sara to Islamabad with you?
For a few days.
I think she will feel better if the atmosphere changes.
Mother you know I would love to but she will go with me.
It is your job to convince father.
Really?
Yes.
Shahzaib was still not in the mood to send me to Pakistan.
I don't know why he gets upset as soon as he hears Pakistan's name.
But I have also thought to get upset this time.
I will do one thing and you will see how many calls I have made since I have come.
He cares so much about you.
Mother he really cares a lot.
And not only him, he cares about his in laws.
He cares so much about me.
If he hadn't cared, it would have been so difficult for me in America.
But now I don't even realize that I am so far away from all of you and Pakistan.
Thank God.
Thank God a thousand times.
I had so many fears in my heart while marrying you.
I was so scared that I would send my child so far away.
But thank God.
I didn't show you the pictures of my house.
I will get the laptop.
I am so happy.
Hi.
When did you come?
Me?
I had to go out.
I told you to go out.
Mother sends me.
She sends me.
Sometimes with a cousin, sometimes with a friend.
I don't even feel like going anywhere.
That's good.
Otherwise what will you do sitting at home?
What will you do sitting alone?
I don't feel like going anywhere.
Nothing makes me happy anymore.
Sara, please don't do this.
I am not doing this.
Come on.
You have to get out of this depression.
Mother, father, I am worried about you.
Please don't do this.
I don't know what to do.
I can't forget her.
I know, I know.
You have to forget her.
There is nothing we can do about her now.
It's going to be alright.
Please.
Please don't do this.
You have refused her?
I will refuse her when I don't want to get married.
Don't talk nonsense.
Why don't you want to get married?
You got married.
Isn't that enough?
Your marriage doesn't mean that you get everyone married.
I don't know about others.
And I will have to do this with you.
I still don't believe that you have refused such a good proposal.
He wasn't Prince Charles.
Even Prince William isn't enough for you.
Anyway, he is married now.
And you tell me about Usama.
There is no point in talking about Usama.
I told you, right?
I have already refused him.
This refusal doesn't matter.
You can still change your decision and talk to him.
You mean to say that after refusing him, I should go and talk about marriage again?
There is no question.
He likes you so much.
He will go crazy with happiness when your refusal will be accepted.
There is a big difference between him and my class, Sidra.
Kashif, are you saying this?
Yes, I am saying this.
There is a big difference between class differences.
And Usama doesn't know anything about me.
I can never bring her in front of her in my house.
Our mediocre lifestyle.
Father's second marriage.
I should not tell her about these things even after dying.
If he really likes you, then he will not care about these things.
This is your misunderstanding.
If he finds out about all this, then he will never marry me.
And whatever respect I have in his eyes, that will also end.
Why do you think like this, Kashif?
You are already pessimistic.
You are trying to find out the results.
You don't know life and people as much as I do.
I know that much.
After all, you have seen so much of the world.
You got married after your masters.
And now you are enjoying in America.
If you ever went out, then you would have seen,
how much profit people have.
How many double standards are there.
Yes, fine.
Maybe I didn't do a job like you.
But that doesn't mean that I don't know anything.
There are two types of people in the world, Kashif.
There are bad people and there are good people too.
Okay, now don't talk in support of good people and eat my brain.
Don't you see,
how worried mom is because of your stubbornness?
I am not stubborn.
This is my life.
If I don't want to get married, then what is there to worry about?
Then will you stay like this for the rest of your life?
Yes, I will stay like this.
I had no idea,
that I will miss her so much after marriage.
If I had an idea,
that I will get so used to her
and her presence,
that I will miss her so much, then I would have never met her.
I would have never met her.
I would have never left her.
I would have never been separated.
That is why I tried to make you understand.
There is no need to take such a big decision on such small things.
Divorce is not a joke.
Especially when you and Farhan had such good compatibility.
They had a deep friendship.
I knew that after all these things,
whether it was fast or slow, you would have at some point realized her shortcomings.
I really took the proposal of marriage very lightly.
I shouldn't have taken it.
Anyways, what's done is done.
Forget about it. You are alive and well.
He has moved on and you should move on as well.
That's what I don't understand.
I don't understand how he can move on so easily.
Doesn't he miss me at all?
The wavelength that was with me,
how can it be with someone else?
Doesn't he miss me at all?
The compatibility, the understanding that was between us,
how can it be with someone else?
I just don't understand.
Was it that simple for him?
Even then you divorced him.
You divorced him.
What compatibility, what understanding?
I don't know what had happened to me.
I had made everything an issue of ego.
He used to say the same thing.
There is compatibility and understanding when you are talking.
There was no communication between us.
Then what compatibility and what understanding?
I have learned something or not after my breakup.
I have definitely learned one thing.
What?
You know if I ever get married again
and I have children,
then I will never raise them the way you and I have.
I will not make my daughter a confused personality like me.
Because in the end,
she will suffer.
Leave it.
I have made tea for you.
Drink this.
Thanks.
Hello. Hi.
What is happening?
I was waiting for you.
Don't you get bored of this daily routine?
I got bored in four days.
What do you do after coming from office?
I watch TV after coming from office.
If you don't sleep then I go out.
What else do I have to do in Guzmanabad?
You have stopped going.
I have stopped going.
Due to lack of time and motivation.
Saeroon, you should get married now.
This is what I wanted to say to you.
No thanks.
I have done one experience of marriage.
Which didn't work.
Right now I don't have any intention of jumping into this well.
You forget.
I also have one experience of bad engagement in my CV.
Saeroon, there is a lot of difference between engagement and marriage.
I know.
Then?
What have you thought?
I have thought a lot.
But I can't see anything.
Are you interested?
Hmm.
To be honest, I don't understand.
Maybe I am.
Maybe I am not.
Maybe I am trying to be.
Or maybe I am wrong.
What do you mean? I don't understand.
The more confusion I have in my sentence.
The more confusion I have in my mind.
Which girl are you trying to be interested in?
Classmate.
Name?
Kashaf.
Kashaf?
She is not the same girl.
I still remember.
Obviously, why won't you remember?
I have heard you doing bad things to a girl for the first time.
And you never do bad things to a girl.
Hmm.
One bad thing has become very expensive.
You want to marry her?
What I want to do, leave it for now.
Listen to what is happening.
Tell me.
Should this mohopy die?
It'll die.
What, my love?
Yes?
What do I tell you?
Take the quarrel with that brat or be fine with it.
I didn't go with him.
He edged me out and took revenge on his mother.
Then why didn't you marry him?
Tell me what you want?
I don't want to marry him because I have educated him a lot.
Hello?
Yes, tell me.
I don't understand what to say.
Why?
What did you call?
You must have called to say something.
When I call, you don't even receive my calls.
I thought I would call you and check if you have changed your number.
I didn't change it before but I think I will now.
Now that you know that this phone is on, please hang up now and don't bother calling me again.
Okay, I know you are angry and I actually called to apologize to you.
For what?
The thing I said the other day, I think you didn't like it and I just want you to know
I was purely joking.
It was a joke and I was in a good mood.
Although you shouldn't have.
You shouldn't have made such a funny joke between us.
Although you shouldn't have.
You shouldn't have made such a funny joke between us.
Yes, but we have spent two years together in the university.
And how are we spending those two years?
Do you remember?
Or should I remind you?
I think we were just immature.
We?
I think only you were immature.
I have apologized to you before and I had told you that I made a mistake.
It was a misunderstanding.
I thought we had put it behind us.
Then what is the point of repeating this again?
You may not have, but I have.
I have.
Why don't you tell me clearly why you are talking nonsense?
Talk straight.
Two talks.
I am coming to the same side.
Then come.
Uncle.
I want to propose to Kashif.
What do you want to do?
I want to marry Kashif.
Can you do it?
If I could, I would have done it.
That's why I need you.
She listens to everything you say.
She confides in you.
She understands everything you say.
She comes and goes.
You can make her understand.
Do you want her to leave coming to my house?
Why would I want that?
Laloon, you have surprised me.
How did this thought come to your mind?
Why?
Why couldn't I think of her?
You never said anything good about Kashif.
You wouldn't have even heard that from her.
Yes, I am not surprised because you are proposing to her.
She doesn't propose to you.
First you didn't even want to see her face.
Now you are thinking of marrying her.
Junaid is right.
Your mind is definitely out of control.
I am sure of it.
No, sir.
Not a little.
A lot.
And by the time you reach your age, I will be dead.
You are talking about my marriage right now.
What you are doing and I just heard it.
Uncle, I am serious.
I don't understand how you have become so serious.
I mean, you and Kashif.
I mean, I have to struggle thinking of you two together.
I don't understand how Kashif came to your mind.
I know.
But you know what is weird?
In the past few months, whenever I think about marriage, Kashif comes to my mind.
I feel as if he has all the qualities.
He has all the qualities that I look for in a life partner.
What do you think?
That he will prove to be an obedient wife who polishes shoes and follows your instructions.
You mean Kashif Murtaza and an obedient wife.
Do you think so?
Uncle, who told you that this is the standard of my life partner?
You think that I have expectations of that blind obedience from Kashif and that is why I am choosing him.
Then why are you choosing him?
Because of his character.
Character?
I like Kashif's strength of character.
Which I have seen in very few other girls.
I really admire that about her.
And I have a great deal of respect for her values.
Maybe the values of her are what you see in your ideal woman but your values are not what she finds in her ideal husband.
Uncle, I agree that I have been very careless in the past.
But time changes and people also change with time.
And I have changed as well.
I am much more mature now.
What should I say?
Kashif is absolutely right about you.
What does she say?
Leave her.
Uncle, I am not joking. Please tell me.
Please tell me.
Do you know the difference between your status and her status in the family?
I always know.
And do you know the difference as well?
Uncle, I have no interest in knowing the difference.
I just know that I want to marry that girl and that's it.
Did you talk to Ghazala and Junaid?
Is it Mount Everest that it will be difficult to talk to them?
But Kashif is Mount Everest.
Not Mount Everest but K2F.
K2F.
It is that difficult.
But the truth is uncle, I really want to marry her.